losing is a part of having

thinking over a whole night
don't know got sleep or not
got sleep?
no sleep?
but finally wake up at 11.30am
stay at room
don't want go out
plan 1.00pm out eat brunch
with Boon n Civil friends
but they have to go scuba driving
so alone eat lor

1.00-2.00pm
go eat 猪肉粉
stay at there for 1 hour
don't know want to do what
very lost

2.00-4.oopm
driving FUNG
around Parit Buntar
then heading north
drive and drive
until don't know where already
i think i got reach BM
at Taman Sukan or what i forgot
poskod is 14000
then return sourth back to parit buntar
driving back the same route i took
driving 60km/h
don't want drive highway
scare i will lose control
found 1 wakil proton
later see FUNG if want service
can go there

4pm at Perkaka
suddenly want cut hair
so
go cut lo
RM10
cut hair and wash the hair only
if want massage head and shoulder need RM20
then go walk and see the pasar malam stall

5pm back room
finally open mind already
don't want be upset
want to become happy
"i used to scare losing
then scare having"
now
i shouldn't be scare of having
since losing is a part of having
every moment we spend together
is a "having" already
it won't be lose
as it is always inside our mind
in deep our soul
I must realize that
I won't be scare to have
I won't be scare to lose
have and lose
are brother
must be balance
can not scare to lose
then scare to have it
very naive thinking
now
I had realized...
thanks to u
and to all of my friends